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This evening was for me, was one of those evening where once all the hustle and bustle of the day was over, I found myself thinking and asking myself, what's next? I thought about what I want to do after NS. I thought about what I want to do with my life. What I wanted to study, what I wanted for my future. It made me think about my inner passion for music that never feels to make me feel alive, and how at the age of seventeen when I did shit for my exams I told myself that the path of “math and science” was not for me, and took the plunge to study music and sound in poly. I still think it’s a miracle that I got into poly till this day. I dare say I worked hard and graduated proud and with a smile on my face. Poly days are over but one thing I really loved about it was how for the first time in my life I was really excitedly learning and working on something I truly loved. Sure some people say don’t mix work and play together but for me I’m the kind of person that really needs to love what I do. My studies for my diploma in sonic arts gave me the chance to express myself through the means that I loved the most. I was never good with math or science or even english. But music for me was something that came so naturally from the heart. I still might not be the best sonic artist or musician or sound engineer out there but I dare say, I’m doing what I love and I’m ready to continue doing this, studying it and eventually make a serious career out of it. Hopefully also inspiring and helping people along the way. These thoughts might have been surprised and never voiced out but hey, let least I’m penning it down so maybe 10 years from now I can come back here and read it and know that I felt this way when I did. This being said, I’m never ever give myself a reason to stop doing things that I love and I think no one should, cause love, and the things we love, be it our families, friends, girl/boy friends, or even our laptops and our material items give us a purpose in our daily lives to breathe for another few seconds and say alive for a few more hours each time.

So I'm 22 and its time to shout gong xi fa chai. Honestly, I wasn't looking forward to being a year older especially when its twenty two. Twenty two just doesn't sound very nice to me. haha. Anyway, now that its all over, I think I'm really starting to feel very positive about things again. When 2009 crossed over to 2010 last Dec 31st, I honestly was not feeling the festive new year vibes is as much as I normally would but strangely, now that it has crossed over to the "chinese new year" I'm having that "good vibe" feeling. Maybe 2010 will be a fab year after all. The start has been shaky, testing, and bumpa bump bump bumpy but cheers to better days a head. Happy vday and cny too all you lovers out there. Roses aren't the only thing that's gonna be red this vday huh? :)